Out of Control

I am out of control.  I have been all day.  Actually, I have been out of control for a while now....weeks, months.  I was in control until April, maybe into May, but it has gotten to be terrible for the last two weeks.  Why?  I am not certain.  Someone once wrote that control was an illusion.  Not exactly true.  There is nothing illusory about self-control.  In any given nano-second you either have it or you don't.  Sometimes, it isn't a character flaw, it is just incredible fatigue or outlandish stress.  There are folks who are never self-controlled.  Those are the ones who have the character problem.  That problem isn't really fixable.  For most of us, rest up and take the pressure off and we get where we are supposed to be.  We can even manage our crises with self-control.  Sometimes we need coping skills that are beyond the mundane, run-of-the-mill "aromatherapy" and "soft music" tools.  Sometimes the re-institution of our self-control is not a 1-2-3 snap-to-it command, it may be a slow, deliberate process.  Whichever it is, please let it happen soon.