Why can't I understand?

I wanted to write about how and why I love you, but I am profoundly not able to do that.  We became "reacquainted" over a year ago.  You told me early on that you had nothing to give.  I really thought that this was all about "things"......money, assets, financial interests.  That was why I told you I did not need to be married.  I knew what I had been told by first, Patsi, then you, about your life.  I knew how devastating the events you had been through can be.  I know first hand about financial, physical and emotional devastation. I have been to all of those places, had all of those experiences and more.  Each time, I have come back stronger.  I have started over more times than I can tell you and more times than I want to remember.  Except for this time.  I want to start over with you.  I want this to work and I want us to be together forever.......or as much of forever as may be practical to expect.  What I don't know is how to get you see it the same way I do.  I don't really know how to successfully encourage you to come close to me.  Sometimes I feel so inept and clumsy.  I weep at my lack of skill.....or my unworthiness.  Surely, if I were really worthy and deserving, you would love me back and would want to spend your life with me.  Surely...........surely......I could not be so wrong.......again..