Life as I knew it

I have never been comfortable in the world except as a very little girl.......before school.....when the known world was just Mom and Dad and Home.  I have come to believe that I was never really designed to be "in" the world and "of" it, but I cannot think of anywhere else I might belong.  Sounds like alienation and isolation to me.  I am already on a double dose of Zoloft as it is, but there is only so much "better living through chemistry" a person can tolerate.  I do believe I have hit my limit.  I need to do this on my own.  What is it about Mondays?