After nearly twenty years of obstinancy, of insisting that I could do it all by myself, that I didn't need help from anybody, I broke under the staggering weight of old grief, a new death, loneliness, financial ruin, physical debility, overwhelming responsibility, and desperation. Fortunately for me, although I had lost God in those years, God had not lost me. When my desolation was so acute that I finally called out His name, He was there to carry me as He has always promised. So I went back to church, made my confession, took communion and made a commitment to God. Next spring I will seek confirmation in the church.
Joining the choir was part of the commitment I made. Tonight when I went to the church, it was pouring rain. No one else showed up for practice, but I sat in my car and just listened to the sound. I used to think that rain was sad......the sky weeping as Mother Nature tried to drown her sorrows. Tonight, I heard extraordinary music. It wasn't Mother Nature's sorrow I heard, but her philharmonic orchestra, joyously playing in concert.
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